Three of Pentacles, Queen of Mugs, and Knight of Knives
The Three of Pentacles is from the Modern Witch Tarot by Lisa Sterle. This varies from the standard Rider-Waite-Smith version, and I appreciate that she includes people of different body types. The Three asks you to consider your craft. How can you learn, and what can you teach others? The three figures represent a psychic unity, the Mind (instructor), the Body (the model), and the Spirit (the artist), all working together toward a single purpose.
The Queen of Mugs is by Cat Rocketship. The Queen is there to guide you to help you meet people where they are. When we are in the present moment, it can seem like your interactions with people are solely a reflection of you. The Queen asks you to take a more expansive view and consider what else may be at play besides right now. People have bad days, and that is not a reflection of you. A reversal indicates an inability to meet people where they are.
The Knight of Knives, also by Cat Rocketship, is full of energy. They are the classic knight bounding off on whatever quest they have been given. They know they are right. The Knight of Knives is a creature that knows their core values. As the real world whirlwind buffets them, they remain true to themselves. The reversal blocks this energy. Woof.
I suppose it makes sense that it took me days to get to this reading. This one feels personal, although that is what a tarot deck is supposed to do. This deck is especially terse, and I appreciate her for that. Personally, I am working on my card-reading and getting back into writing. But I feel pulled in a dozen different directions. There is time to spend with my family, it's the busy season at work, and I still need to complete the laundry list of tasks to keep me sane, fed, and in shape.
Of course, this brings in doubt, and I carry it with me as if it were my fault for not being strict enough. The Queen of Mugs is there telling me that circumstances are important, and background radiation matters. You need to understand what you can control and what you can't. Deep down, I have trouble accepting that. I am pretty competent and have generally been able to solve my problems by pushing harder, and that just isn’t gonna fly as I get older, and life gets increasingly complex.
The Knight says it’s time to choose. Not forever, but for right now, and I still really can’t. I am pulled in dozens of different directions (gaming of all sorts, parties, work projects, other writing projects, meditation, other exercises), and I don’t know what to pick going forward. Of course, not choosing is a choice in and of itself.
